-another chapter of Quarter Life Crisis series-

halo saya kembali,,,

as i told you on the last post about quarter life crisis i promise to tell another stories.
so here it is.

kali ini saya mau cerita tentang galaunya saya.
as you know i am now on my middle 20's and stumbling to find a husband candidate.
but lately i think i've crush on 3 man. yes you not miss read it there is 3 man that
flutter my heart.

the 1'st man, he is my old crush since my college life. i meet him through the campus organization
i still remember the very first moment of us being alone.
he fill almost all of category that i've dreamed on about husband material.
but i dont know about how he feel towards me.
is he likes me back like the way i like him? just dont know.
maybe he just count me as a regular girl friend.
i dont have the chance to know about that, neither i have the courage to ask him that.
i tell a friend of mine that also his friend, i've crush on him.
in hope that she'll give this information to him.
but no, this is not give me an answer, and its turn to be more and more complicated.
it do makes me think he not seeing me as i am seeing him.
so yeah this is might not work.

the second one is the man from the job.
i've been working on my recent job for almost 8 months now.
and he is the only available man on the team, he is not taken but i think he has gf.
but i dont know for sure yet, this is just my guess.
he start to make a contact with me, i mean an intense one.
when we out for lunch after meeting he sit near me.
i mean this is happen most of the time like 8 of 10.
the recent one that happen is when we go to karaoke after work.
he sit near me and keep bumping to me while it's clearly a large room i mean,
a really really large one that possibly fit for double us in one time.
and also my friend told me that she is seems suspicious by the way he interacted with me.
she think he try to hit with me.
or this is just another not gonna work story for me.
i dont know.

the last one the third, is a man that my friend introduce to me.
he is fine, not a having a gf, and a good man.
at least that was the description that my friend give to me.
since i'm not the type of person that will trust a word without an investigation.
so i decide to do one.
yes i've been working on my detective instinct and a found more fact about him.
first, yes he the kind guy but he seems not interested in relationship in the near time.
he is the workaholic type and in the state to support the entire family.
so he is closely not gonna work on me.
i can really call i've crush on him.
but i think he would possibly be my crush.
but hey! you cant forget this. he is not interested in a relationship.
before it getting too deep i'll choose to move on and say goodbye.
because you know, it'll be hard if i've fallen for his charm.
better avoid before the disaster come.

fyuh~ finally i've told all the heart problem.
and it is help me to clear my mind
please wish me to meet some one that will complete me and also want me to complete him ASAP.
ya Rabbi please answer my prayer.

thanks for reading.

deskripsi singkat tentang pekerjaan front office dan Admin

Halo, 

Selamat berpuasa ya bagi teman-teman yang menjalankan.

Malam ini saya lagi mood buat nge-blog nih, Dan topik yang akan saya angkat adalah mengenai pengalaman bekerja saya. Oia saya sudah kembali berstatus employee setelah 6 bulan melamar kesana kemari. Dari pekerjaan sebelumnya saya memutuskan untuk resign setelah setahun bekerja, selain karena faktor gaji yang menyebabkan saya mundur dari tempat yang lama saya juga ingin mencari pekerjaan yang sesuai dengan passion saya. Rekan-rekan job seeker mungkin ada yang se-vision ya dengan saya dalam hal ini.

Well di pekerjaan saya yang lama saya menjabat sebagai staff front office di sebuah TK dan Playgroup swasta. Job describtion nya sendiri sama seperti admin tapi sekaligus merangkap sebagai marketing karna saya akan langsung berinteraksi kepada calon wali murid yang ingin mendadtarkan anak-anak nya ke sekolah. Bisa dibilang garda depannya sebelum masuk ke kelas. Disini kita dituntut untuk bisa memahami keunggulan sekolah dan bisa menyampaikan dengan bahasa yang bisa 'memikat' customer. Menurut saya sendiri pekerjaannya tidak terlalu sulit bagi fresh graduate macam saya waktu itu, ditambah  lagi saya memang menyukai dunia anak-anak. Wah  kebayang dong anak-anak lucu yang siap sedia setiap hari akan saya jumpai usia nya mulai dari 2-5 tahun. Saya sendiri suka dibikin gemes sama polah tingkah nya mereka benar-benar menyenangkan. Okay back to the line walaupun pekerjaan dan rekan-rekan disekolah menyenangkan dan penuh kekeluargaan i need to be realistic. Saya butuh finnancial support yang lebih baik dari ini maka dari itu saya memutuskan untuk resign. Paling tidak pengalaman 1 tahun belerja bisa menjadi modal saya untuk kedepannya. And my life is not as flat as flat shoes. 

Setelah resign saya kembali menjadi freelancer saya kembali menerima orderan logo tapi sayang orderan tidak terlalu banyak jadi ya hanya sampingan yang benar-benar kesamping. Setelah kurang lebih 6 bulan saya menebar lamaran pekerjaan seorang teman menginfokan lowongan pekerjaan di sebuah perusahaan makanan baby kelas nasional sebagai admin. Wah pucuk dicinta ulam pun tiba pikir saya langsung saya kirimkan lamaran sendiri kesana dan alhamdulillah nya ketika saya mengantar lamaran saya langsung di interview oleh ibu-ibu yang sekarang menjadi boss saya dikantor. Proses seleksi nya sendiri cukup panjang hampir sekitar 3-4 kali saya di interview 2-3 kali saya di tes kemampuan komputer dan excel setelah itu lanjut tes psikotes dan tes kesehatan dan alhamdulillah saya keterima. Allah maha pemberi rezki sebelum ramadhan saya sudah mulai bekerja. Oia sebelumnya saya juga nego mengenai gaji dan tunjangan serta hak dan kewajiban dan alhamdulillah hasilnya sangat lebih baik dari yang saya harapkan.

Untuk job describtion nya sendiri sebagai admin saya dituntut untuk bermain angka setiap hari. Mulai dari mengolah data mentah dari lapangan juga data yang ditarik dari server. And yes practice make perfect saya juga ga jago-jago amat mainan excel but since i know silent cant change anything saya belajar dan bertanya sama bapak-bapak dan boss dikantor tentang apa yang saya tidak tahu mereka pun menjawab dan membantu sekali. Here i told ya it's a way better to ask than remind silent and do not know what to do. Jadi jangan takut bertanya ya kalo dimarahi karna bodoh ya gapapa namanya juga belajar einstein juga ga tiba-tiba nemuin rumus abis bangun tidur kan. Semangat aja pantang menyerah there's a will there's a way usaha tidak mengingkari hasil kok. Allah maha adil.

Sejauh ini saya menikmati pekerjaan baru saya dan saya akan tetap berjuang sampai kemana diri ini sanggup berupaya. Everything has a sacrifice point jadi kalo liat kerjaan temen kok enak-enak, belom tentu pasti mereka ada juga ngerasain ga enak nya jd ya dijalanin aja dulu kita manusia kan cepet adaptasi bisa lah menyesuaikan dengan kondisi sekitar hehe~. Rumput tetangga mungkin lebih hijau tapi, kita juga bisa  kok bikin rumput kita jadi warna warni kalau mau, tapi ya rumputnya rumput sintetis hehe~ soalnya kasian kalo rumput hidup yang dipilox. Your life is 100% yours no one will change it instead of your self. Jadi jangan mudah menyerah ya semangat!!!

Tak hentinya saya mendoakan bagi rekan-rekan yang sedang dalam fase a strugling life of job seeker segera menemukan pekerjaan yang sesuai kengiinan keep the spirit on! Figjting! Semangat! 

A lil' note from the birthday girl

Hi in case you dont know today is my birthday 😆🎊🎊

As long as i remember celebrate birthday is always happy thing to do. You start your day full of wishes and blessings that will not stop 'till the day passes.
Yes birthday mean you get one year older and also turn you to be wiser and more mature.
So birthday essence it's not only about getting older or adding more number to your age.
is a way way more than that.
but you cant leave out this, the certainly undesirables and unwanted things
but it always happen to people on quarter life crisis.
in my case i call it as LIFE JUDGES.
the life judges is a kind of person that always brings comparison tag along whenever they meet you.
you might not that close with them, but they never mind that and still act like 'hey my daughter is 3 years younger than you but she's already has 2 children, dont you have a marriage plan?'
oh please! believe me this is real happening on me.
by the way, her children, pardon me?
i dont even know her name mam,
And for the god sake, they were ask for private matter! how come ~
here is a litle advice for this type of person.
O, life judges out there, and for you who plan to become ones lol~
my question for you all is,
do you believe in allah?
Do you have faith in allah?
If yes, why you still questioning my single life status?
Like many people says 'jodoh itu ditangan tuhan'
stop put too many attention on my future partner~ do not waste your time.
i believe in allah azza wajjalah so, let allah handle it and stop worrying.
worrying can increase level of heart attack 😋.
and For your additional information, I've read this story somewhere,
the story is about someone who marry at the age of 23 but wait until six years to have baby.
on the other side there is someone marry at the age of 29 and the next year she welcoming her first baby. This is amazing right? This is hows allah work, it never too early or too late it'll happen in the exact beautiful time.
And moral of this story is to tell you to stop mind other people life or simply stop being life judges.
Let people live the life as their want.
the only things matter is, to live a happy life, let them be.
it is not your responsibility to think about their life. your comment isn't helping at all.
why dont you live your life happily, doing good and breathe the fresh air?
so whenever you die you'll be in heaven, not in hell because your activity when you life to keep butt in people business😆.
Good nite~ oyasumi~ 

hello

Hello it’s me again ^^, I choose to make a comeback on blog and start write again this is one of my way  to let my brain release some of its negative vibe.  Uhm can you See the difference from my last post? Yes,  I’m writing in English hoho~ even my English is not perfect but I’ll try hope you enjoy it.

Well I’m back to the struggling world of job seeker after I quit my job on the last july and still not find a new one yet. I hope you who read this post wouldn’t mind to send me a pray to be salary woman again as soon as possible hehe~ thanks in advance. For your information I’ve  sent  like 2-3 job applications in daily basis, and its only give me one interview schedule on the last December and the result seems like I don’t make it.

 There is more thing to make me feel uneasy and under pressure I see some of my college friend already find and enjoying  a stable life as employees on this and that company, I feel so small (T,T).  And You know there’s a kind of person who keep digging and asking about your personal matter and be like hey look she’s still do bad than us haha! lets laugh as hard as possible but don’t forget to put best act of empathy afterward. I pray for people like this to never  feel what I feel. Well well Don’t mind such loser,  let them be but don’t forget to give them a flying watermelon right on the face haha~.

 

Actually there may still a bright side of being job seeker, one for example is you still can wake up late in the morning and being unproductive all day haha~  it’s not that bright huh? Forget that. And this is what I hate the most of hitting back the  job seeker world again, I am penniless I am  very poor I mean I’m broke very very broke like totally broke I have zero income. I can’t afford anything like a trash. No no asking money to my parent is not a solution,  Is a big no! support my financial life is no longer their duty.  I don’t want to become a double trash.  I should be able to support my self, and I think it’s already the time for me to change position with them now  It’s my turn to support their financial life. I really wish for that to happen asap.

In this state of my broken soul and financial life, some of my friend ask me to join their holiday plan yes,  holiday plan. Hey look, I can’t even afford  a cup of starbuck coffee and you ask for what?! Holiday?? Oh live on my dream. Sometimes I do love to traveling and wish I can visit at least a new country in one year but how suppose I make it happen when I don’t have money. Please just wish me can go back to work immediately so I can happily be your travel mate. Dear company out there please read my application and hire me, I ask you desperately I’m begging you.  I wish I can find a stable job as soon as possible then I’m gonna married (although I don’t have husband candidate yet haha~) and live happily ever after. 

Thanks for reading and I hope the reader can understand my bad English hihi~

See you soon, I’ve much more of ‘quarter life crisis’ series that I need to tell, wait in the next post .

Have a blessing day XOXO ^^