today is the 4th day i'm home after my 12 days trip to India
since the first day at home i feel something inside me isn't in right position.
i feel like losing something but i don't know what it's exactly.
i enjoyed every second of my trip in India
i love every breathe i heal
but it can't deny the fact that something feels like missing.
i go with my fellow friends to India we're group of 4, 2 boys and 2 girls.
one is my collage friends and the remain i just meet them on the trip.
from what we feels in India i think the fourth of us enjoyed our time.
it's showing from the big laugh that oftenly flowing in our conversation.
we take thousand of pic but i still not receive it since the phone owner not uploading it yet.
most of the pic is taken with edu phone, that's why i don't have that much on mine.
i got back to work on Sunday
my 'ibuk seruangan' skip work for some reason with her girl at the day.
lucky me i don't need to spend a whole day at office no overtime for the first day.
i have lunch with my office mate we have a bowl of warm soup.
the soup that i've been craving when i'm on India.
in the evening we hang out and try some Korean Jigae restaurant that recently open in Town.
it supposed to recover my mood but it's not.
i do laugh with my friends but it only appear on the outside.
i feel like zombie, i even plan to quit my job.
and start looking for a new start far from home.
it because i stress so much on my future.
my mom back with her 'kapan nikah?' question.
the question that i don't want to hear at least for 3 months after my trip.
but i need to be realistic i grow older year by year.
some of my friends gave a birth to second baby and some is getting marry near soon.
but here i am sitting in front of my leppi.
i'm not finding 'The One' yet.
that's the top urgent, top priority on my every du'a.
what else can i do?
tell me?
please please save me.
i don't want this feeling killing me
